SANDRA!

okkays , since they like to say abt me thn just say .
ii know ii am a slacker .
but so what .
tried to workhard but does that works ?
maybe ii didnt work that hard or even ii didnt workhard at all !
before every matches telling myself that today must do well .
but in the end ?
still the same , playing like a slacker .
teammates saying me .
coach saying me too .
didnt ask coach if got trg the nxt day after NBS match .
at night huimin msg me thn ii told her to msg jl thn reply me
cos my msg bao lerhhs .
but huimin didnt reply me .
until the nxt day morning during assembly
siyi called jl thn ii know got trg .
lydia ask why ii didnt ask jl myself ?
ii know if ii say mine msg bao it wouldnt be an excuse .
nnd before the day joyce had remind me to ask jl .
nnd ii didnt .
nnd ii explain to them that ii told huimin to ask .
they said as the captian you should ask yourself instead of asking juniors to ask .
yes , ii admit it's my fault .
in the beginning of sec1 ms tan said me nnd peiyi in charge of taking nnd keeping the balls nnd keys from teacher .
ms tan said she everyone would take turns to do these job .
but now , it's seems to be my job to do these be'cos since sec1 ii had been doing these .
during sec1 we are in charge of these instead of seniors .
but now ? ii am sec2 nnd ii am still doing all these but sometimes other sec2s did too .
why isnt sec1 doing anything ?
ii am just sick of doing these .
so much trouble when sometimes just cant contact the teacher .
where's the take turns to do all these job that ms tan said ?!
nnd ii dunnoe when did jl or ms tan ever said ii am the captian .
ii am just the one responsible in taking nnd keeping balls nnd out of nowhere ii am the captian .
why like that ?
ii dont like to be captian , ii rather just be like others sec2 that always have no responsiblity in doing all these stuff . do you know it's tiring to do these .
nnd when ii did smth wrong they would blame me but did they ever look at the point of view that what ii had DID ?
why siyi cant be the captian ? do ii seems like ii have responsibilty ?
sigh , say so much also useless larhhs .
say lerhhs will ii not become the captian ?
say lerhhs will ii stop taking balls all these ?
nnd did jl ever make things clear before making any conclusion that the sec2s doesnt care to ask you if there is training ?
nnd if we explain you would say it's just excuses for not doing so .
did you ever look at what we had done well instead of always looking at what we had done wrongly ?
if we won you would just say be'cos that team is lousy .
if we lose you would say be'cos we are lousy .
regardless of winning or losing you are just trying to say we are just lousy .
isn't it ?
nnd why must the school always blame the coach when we lose ?
this shows that the school only cares abt reputatuion .
everyone would make mistakes but we should learn from the mistakes .
instead of scolding or blaming people .
nobody ever said you are a good coach or not .
at least you are qualify as a coach unlike others they cant .
nnd if ii say so much you would just say be'cos my attitude had change or we dou da all these .
human will change if human wont change thn it isn't a human .
nnd you always say ii am very shui bian in court .
is not ii wanted to be shui bian .
everyone in court want to do well nobody want to just like playplay like that .
if they want to play they can just go play with those that also want to playplay de .
nnd always ii made mistakes in court like irresponsible passes .
but ii cant really pass there nnd have no where to pass to .
or maybe ii am just a lousy player .
nnd why must you compare us with others ?
we are we .
they are they .
if want compare , when in court we will know who is the better one .
if you think ii am playing like a slacker ii had no choice to change it be'cos it's you think that ii am .
okkays , ii shall not say anymore .
ii am sorry for what ii had done wrongly .
ii will do my best nnd fight for the ball against anderson match .
jiayous c'girls (: !