Hi, I'm back from hiatus. NOT! just have the great desire to post (:

Maybe you wouldn't believe this, I still can't get over the fact that I actually scored a 3points and close up the difference to 1point. Also, I really can't believe I am so dumb to take the ball and got stuck at the opponent tummy -.- why? Why didn't I think of raising the ball high and draw a foul. Why didn't I look carefully at the surrounding before making the move. Why? Why? WHYY!!! We could have win! It's just a difference of 2points!!! TWO FREAKING POINTS!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! WHYYYYYY!? I promised to play at my best for the year3 but I could have done better. Its always like that, why can't I cool down and think carefully before acting it out? Regret after the game. What's the point? Over is over. I really think we deserve the win! We rightfully deserve it if we played well throughout! They aren't very strong, we are like on par! I don't know how to explain the feeling I'm having now. It's just damn bloody not worth it! Pretend to be okay but not. Smile but crying inside. Joking but bleeding inside. I feel sorry for myself and the team as well. If I don't suggest to be the shooter maybe still got hope? Everybody would be like, "You did your best at that time, the team doesn't blame you. Great game...blahblahblah" Yea, I think its better than polite and that's something I'm very happy at. They don't blame me, I blame myself for being such an ass! I have expectations for myself but I didn't manage to achieve it ): I did my best at certain point of the game, not all the time. Again, why?! Thinking back, I really wonder if I can draw foul within 1second. I challenge myself to just give all out but it turns out so badly! Stuck at the opponent tummy! URGHHHH! ):< Well, everyone saying “take it as an experience” True, I agree. Can only take it as a kinda costly lesson. Do better for next match and I’ll be happy (: Don’t forget the simplest reason for me to play basketball, I feel happy and enjoy playing basketball. Very much (: so be happy when I play, but gotta be serious at times. Just gotta work harder, Sandra! You know you can! I have faith in you! (: