Well, the reason why I'm back is because somebody mentioned why didn't I post for soooooo long. Indeed, since January. HAHA!
There were so much things that happened during this period of time. Ups and downs in life.
So much that I can't even remember it all? Yea, I guess so.
Let's me just write about what's happening recently. Okay, maybe about today.
Woke up early in the morning and went to join YT training. I always go back there to train because I like it and partly ngeeann trg is really...sigh terrible. Less than 10 for every training. Can't even play a proper 5v5. In YT, you can joke and have fun with the people there!! & the main thing is I've actually learnt more things from them (not talking about skills or techniques) Just look at the way they train, how much effort they put in when they train. how much they love basketball, you can tell. Thinking back, did I train as hard as how they did? Sidetrack ah. I was reading my previous post just now and I saw this sentence
"Don’t forget the simplest reason for me to play basketball, I feel happy and enjoy playing basketball. Very much (: so be happy when I play, but gotta be serious at times."
Next thing that came into my mind is that, do i feel happy when i am playing in ngeeann? My answer is no. Instead, i feel as though i am suffering. I don't know why. I tried to communicate with all of them and wanting all of us to feel bonded but it seems that no matter how hard i tried, it doesn't work. No one except a few are committed to this team. I felt so demoralized that i forgot what's the reason that i've decided to play in ngeeann. Well, there were still times where i felt happy playing in ngeeann. Everytime when i go for trg, it would be like - "sian, today got how many people only."
No motivation at all. too demoralized to have that. Though every training i am like complaining ahhh so sian so shag but before trg starts, i'll still tell myself
"Sandra, you come for trg because you want to play well. you want improve. you want to prove to others that ngeeann is no pushover. so you gotta train hard so that you can show others and you are not gonna do this alone. you have to encourage others to do it tgt with you. you have to fight for what you want." but everytime as i train i felt so weak, i mean feel like i have deprove alot and i just couldn't get my body to keep pushing on. 有心无力!!(is this the correct idiom?)
I know its all about the mind over body thing but i just fail to do so -.-
Guess what, my thigh is aching like mad right now. I can't even walk properly and there is trg tmr. Goodluck to myself.
This is what I'm getting from the recent intense trg in ngeeann. Compared to last time, i guess that was nothing to me man. Now, its like WALAO EH! I WANT DIE ALREADY! ):
-shakes head-
Okay, i'm like out of track alr. Sorry for that, unknowingly I typed all those out. hahaha! I think i wanted to talk about what happened today right? LOL!
so after YT trg, went to funan mall to repair my laptop. Total waste of time over there. Okay, maybe not so because i bought my iphone dock. My laptop is in a healthy condition when i thought it was dying on me because my cd compartment couldn't work. It turned out to be the settings problem. pfffffffft! next stop, queensway shopping mall!
AH HA! lydia bought a super chio cap yozxzxz!
this is the closest image that i found which is similar to the one she bought :D
I did a great help in helping her to choose ^^
and someone still bought a shoe bag lah!!! tmdzxzxzxz ):<
I wanted to buy but i think its a waste of money because i can like just wash my shoe bag and use again, right? yes, i think it makes complete sense. HAHA!
AND I SAW THIS BAG WHICH COST 83DOLLARS!! OMG!
I think it looks something like that.
so normal 83dollars?!!?! okay, maybe you cant tell how the hell i fell in love with this because this picture is so not convincing! then i was thinking, if this is 83bucks i rather get the manhatten backpack which is 100plus :/ then i was like hint hint lydia to buy it for my birthday! HAHAHAHA! I was just kidding okay, dont take it too seriously :)
this is the design and i want the navy colour! I always cant bear to buy things using my own phone ): yet im wasting my parents money like dont know what. burrrrrrrrr...
I want to buy my darn speakers!!!!!!!! Fatty xin bought it already. urghhh! I'm loving it so much and i cant wait to buy it! but have to go all the way to jurong point challenger! only there have stock. just in case you want to see how lovely it look like, here it is!!
To me this is like definitely worth the price!! (S$75) and the sound system is really GOOD!
so gonna get this in no time!!! muahahahaha! next time i can just blast music when nobody is at home. HOHOHO! :P
Anyway, the things that i want to buy is like never ending. LOL! & i realised i bought 4 5 or 6 pieces of new clothes using my parent ka-ching. guilty much ):
OHYES! AND I WANT TO WATCH SO MANY MOVIES LAH!!!!
THIS ARE THE MOVIES I WANNA WATCH:
want to watch x-men then green lantern then hangover 2 then something borrowed then pirates of the carribean! but rahhhh!! I have not movie partner ): will you, whoever is reading this, watch it with me ): sighhhhhhhh! ohno, sound damn desperate. No worry, I AM NOT!
i think this is more than enough for today.
Goodbye my beloved readers ;) i wonder who the hell will read this anyway. HAHA!
oh! except for roxanne who told me that she visits here everyday. mad girl. HAHAHAHA!
Whatever shit life throws at you, you've got to find that strength to brave through it. And alot of times, that strength come from the people around us. The greatest glory in living, is never failing, but rising each time we fall. Sometimes, failure can quite possibly be the best thing ever happened. You just have to find the strength and belief in yourself to continue living even when the world turn it's back on you. Just remember, that you're never alone, there will always be someone who cares...
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